April showers....
Yes, that's how April was for me. Rainy, sometimes nice, cold, but mostly blah. I used the clear beads and made them into two tear drops/rain drops. One has my crazy circle signifying that the month was crazy, yet again. One is blank for a lot of reasons. I used clear beads to signify the fact that I need to hide the way I'm feeling from a lot of people. I tend to do this a lot I think. Guess I just haven't found the right person who cares enough to really listen to me (aside from my wonderful husband, who shares the same problems I have). And my problems aren't worth making those I care about worry.
It really was not a good month for much. My husband, who works seasonally is usually back at work regularly by the beginning of April, but not this month. Money is tighter than ever now. Unemployment, is just a joke to live on. We also found out no health insurance until he returns to a regular work schedule. A couple of days after we got that information, he was admitted to the hospital with pancreatitis for a couple of days. Just wonderful! Oh, he's fine now (And no he is not a big drinker ~ there was no found reason for it to happen to him.) Not a great time for this to happen, but what can you do?
Basically April, the month that brings freshness and renewal outside, didn't quite make it into my house this year. Normally, I am finishing up spring cleaning chores and planning redecorating projects etc. Not this year. I hate to be so depressing, I certainly know there are people worse off than me. I just can't help it. Thus, the blank blah page.
I am being hopefully optimistic that May will be better and brighter here and I can do a page to reflect it.
5 comments:
Oh Kelly - what a perfect way you found to express your April page - it's very, very expressive even with your blahs! Hang in there, I'm sure you hear that enough, but things turn around and make themselves fine in the end, I truly believe that. Wishing you lots better moods for May!
pam T
Hi Kelly
I think there are a lot of people across this country that are feel ing the same as you about April. I', pretty sure we skipped March in Northern Indiana but it came in April, and now we are having May weather. See...the sun is out and its warm and we are working in the yard. It came, just as promised?!lol
Your page and your post are very expressive. I hope May is a better month for you.
Marty S
Crackpot Beader
Dear Kelly... You found such a powerful way to express your dismay... the rain is your tears... and it all makes sense. You are brave and strong to be able to write and bead this way. Plus I sense that you are very open to things turning around. I wish that May will bring more sunshine (both real and figurative) to your life. Hugs, Robin
Ahhh! I like your showers......they're restful and relaxing. This is also something that we need in our lives. Don't think of it with sadness, the sun has probably already come out for you.
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