Bring May Flowers~ BJP for May is done!

After making myself more depressed looking at last month, I decided to brighten up this months project more.

I had this fabric left over from a previous project and knew it was just the thing to brighten up this months project for me. The fabric flowers were getting tossed (don't know what I had them for to begin with) and I thought it would add a nice dimension to the fabric, even if they don't quite match, but that's nature, so it worked for me. I had to have a middle for some of the flowers, and since the glue had dried, making it impossible to sew them on, I glued them in. The crazy circles, as always, signify the craziness in my life (and who doesn't have a bit of that?).

I'm glad I could make a brighter piece this month. It doesn't signify that things are any better, but will hopefully get there. I've weeded through the stuff we've accumulated over time and took stock of what we no longer needed. That will all go to people who do need it. I've gone through my craft room and drastically downsized the "stash" I had there. There were so many different crafts that I had tried and just couldn't get into, nor could my kids, so those supplies are gone.

My husband and I have realized that we've taken a lot for granted. Things change throughout our lives that we may not have control over. This isn't always easy to deal with. But, by working together, we'll make it through just fine. Sometimes I feel as if we are back at the beginning and working our way towards something. Seeing as we did that once already, we can do it again. Just like a garden, it starts off small, but with love and care, it can grow into something big and beautiful. In one of my favorite sermons at church (and this has stuck with me for years), the priest said "In the garden of life you need to decide if you want to be the flower in the garden, bright and beautiful or the weed that chokes the life out of the garden." I've always tried to be the "flower".

Now, thinking of June. What to do, what to do? I'm sure something will come into my head. For now, enjoy the moment....

April Showers.....and such.

April showers....
Yes, that's how April was for me. Rainy, sometimes nice, cold, but mostly blah. I used the clear beads and made them into two tear drops/rain drops. One has my crazy circle signifying that the month was crazy, yet again. One is blank for a lot of reasons. I used clear beads to signify the fact that I need to hide the way I'm feeling from a lot of people. I tend to do this a lot I think. Guess I just haven't found the right person who cares enough to really listen to me (aside from my wonderful husband, who shares the same problems I have). And my problems aren't worth making those I care about worry.

It really was not a good month for much. My husband, who works seasonally is usually back at work regularly by the beginning of April, but not this month. Money is tighter than ever now. Unemployment, is just a joke to live on. We also found out no health insurance until he returns to a regular work schedule. A couple of days after we got that information, he was admitted to the hospital with pancreatitis for a couple of days. Just wonderful! Oh, he's fine now (And no he is not a big drinker ~ there was no found reason for it to happen to him.) Not a great time for this to happen, but what can you do?

Basically April, the month that brings freshness and renewal outside, didn't quite make it into my house this year. Normally, I am finishing up spring cleaning chores and planning redecorating projects etc. Not this year. I hate to be so depressing, I certainly know there are people worse off than me. I just can't help it. Thus, the blank blah page.

I am being hopefully optimistic that May will be better and brighter here and I can do a page to reflect it.